The path ahead is uncertain. I know part of that is because I’m lazy. I know it. Hey, I’m owning it, what’s your excuse?
Anyways, this path is super crazy. Part of it looks pretty calm and mellow. Like I feel like I have invisible handrails on the side to hold me in. Those rails are my friends and family and loved ones. But I also see some hills and what look like mini mountains that I need to climb. Well, not need to, but they sure are calling my name. I don’t get why they scare me. Shit, the path behind me is a disaster mess. Some roadblocks busted through, some bombs set off along the wall and some sinkholes that almost got me, but not quite. I’m a pretty resourceful and determined woman. Bring it life….see that path behind me? Yep, behind me. Eat my dust.
But am I this lazy? I mean I have hopes, goals, and dreams. Am I truly this lazy to have them in my eyes shot and not even try? Why am I giving myself so many excuses? For what? To sit on my ass and let it get fatter and wider.
Oh, well, if I work more and pull overtime, I’m still sitting on my ass….so maybe that isn’t the best analogy for this issue. But you know what I mean.
Like why am I being so lazy to just look at my dreams and sit there and not try to make them mine? I mean is life so great where I am now? Pretty much it is. But it would be perfect and to die for and full of meaning if I actually tried to go for it. I can start with my easiest dream. It’s not even a dream about making my own business, but it’s just kind of a dream to see if I could even do something for someone.
I want to start a business where people pay me to put together their puzzles. I mean, I’m not gonna be a millionaire off of it or anything, not trying to be. But I love doing them. Imagine getting paid to do them for people and send them back? That’d be so amazing and cool.
So, since I’m not seeing the idea taking up a bunch of money then why am I sitting on my ass to just throw up a site and see if anyone bites? I mean it’s about doing puzzles which I love and doing them for people who like something but don’t have my patience for it.
I need to sit down and have a good long talk with myself over this pathetic lazy streak that I have.
And sit down I will. I just walked a mile at the park. This isn’t normal for me. I’m lucky if I walk 300 steps a day. Amazing what happens when you don’t even have to walk to your car from a work parking lot.
Have a great day everyone and enjoy! It’s beautiful outside here. But if you’re in Florida, prayers sent your way. BE SAFE!